Thursday, April 28, 2011

- Breathing -

With a single breath we are given life and with one breath we can loose life; it's the breaths in between that matter most. Over the weekend, as we remembered Christ's death and celebrated his life and resurrection, a close friend lost his dad to a massive heart attack and another close friend welcomed their first child into the world. The stark contrast of emotions in the last few days have been amazing, though ringing of the same tone: life is precious and short and we have a choice in what we do with it.

I have heard pastors conducting funerals often use the phrase "what are you doing with your dash?". The idea being that when you die, your tombstone displays your birthday, a "-" , and then your last day. That one little, tiny line tells a story. I have been asking myself what kind of story my "-" tells, seeking honest answers. I have been assured of many things, but also faced with the reality that if you were to zoom in on that little line, you would also see some messy things. One mess in particular is the looming word "busy". Used in a sentence? "I'm sorry, I'm busy that day", "ya, I'm doing really well, I've been keepin' busy" or "I'm so sorry I havent gotten back to you, I've been super crazy-busy" (not just "busy", but "crazy-busy"… as if we needed help getting our point across). I dont want to get to the end of my "-" and have been "busy". I want to get to the end and know that every speck of that little line was used to cultivate relationships, have fun, explore my gifts and talents, restore relationships, accomplish great things (big and small), experience the world and it's Creator, act justly, love mercy, humbly walk with Him and breathe. So, today's blog (I know, I havent been very good at blogging! I'm trying to make this a regular part of my "-") is dedicated to the breaths that were taken and the full, blessed life that was lived by Gary Field (December 27, 1955 - April 23, 2011), to the breaths and adventures that are still to be taken in the life of Aurora Cate Barr (born April 25, 2011), and to the wonderful friends, family and ever-loving God that grace my "-" and bring joy, peace, restoration, adventure and healing to even the simplest of breaths.  May you live a very full "-"


If to distant lands I scatter
If I sail to farthest seas
Would You find and firm and gather?
'Til I only dwell in Thee?

If I flee from greenest pastures
Would You leave to look for me?
Forfeit glory to come after?
'Til I only dwell in Thee

If my heart has one ambition
If my soul one goal to seek
This my solitary vision
'Til I only dwell in Thee
That I only dwell in Thee
'Til I only dwell in Thee
("Hymn" by Brooke Fraser)


Wednesday, April 6, 2011

the experience of love

I got home last night with a new found love, the Dominican Republic. Though it was just a week, I was so pleased with all that we were able to experience in such a short time. I cant wait to go back. Our team read a great book before coming on this trip called Foreign to Familiar, which is about being aware, understanding and communicating with other cultures. It was very helpful in preparing us and having grace toward ourselves and others within those differences. One of the things I love most about trips and experiences like this is that it never fails to expand my mind, heart and love for God and his children.

Before leaving and for a least the first 2-3 days of the trip I had the children's' song "oh be careful little eyes what you see, oh be careful little ears what you hear… little hands what you do… little feet where you go…[little mind where you dwell]… for the Father up above is looking down in love, oh be careful…" stuck in my head. The day I left, my mom told me she felt that for whatever reason I needed to be reminded to "look at their hearts, not their conditions". At first I was kind of taken aback when she said this. Of course I would look at their hearts! … but these words were not from her. Having those things in mind all week helped me to see how much I do focus on destitute conditions before people's hearts, because the destitution is impossible to ignore (and, in my opinion, completely wrong to ignore). Now I see that God was reminding me to see that we are all broken people in need of and deserving of His love. Through the holding of childrens' hands, laughing over language barriers, painting a school room, listening to the stories of staff and children, being a part of creating a safe place for the staff to let loose and relax, enjoying the growing togetherness of our team, exploring the needs of the community, encouraging the strengths and giftedness of each COTN-DR staff person, learning about the daily conditions and struggles of those living in the bateys (and the Dominican Republic in general), learning, listening, worshiping and creating together I experienced love in so many different forms. Though our humanness shone through quite often, there was a constant reassurance that God does love each of us and wants the best for us. He cries with us, laughs with us, dances with us and holds us. That is a love far greater than we will ever begin to fully understand or experience this side of heaven, but certainly one worth fighting for. On the plane ride home I read another great book called unearth about re-entering into our monetarily wealthy American society and how to healthily process overseas experiences and, specifically, overseas missions.  There are so many quotable pieces in the book (it's an easy read, I highly recommend it), but one that really stood out to me was this…

"Love is entering into the pain as well as the glory of this world. There is no way to love authentically without getting messy. And messes will surely erupt as broken people collide in their pursuit to be like Christ. When I think of great lovers in this world, I think of the people who endured heartache and struggle in their efforts to love well. These people are people who give of themselves without expectation or restraint, to love without return… Love will at times sting deeper and ache more than you think you can bear. Although it demands so much of you, it is the most heavenly gift we can engage in here on earth" (unearth, pg. 57 & 59)



And now… pictures :)

 We met these children at the Skills Center (the COTN schools rotate every day) located in Pueblo Nuevo. One of the greatest examples of love this week was the lack of inhibition that children have. They come up right away wanting to play games, hold your hand, be held, learn English, teach Spanish, ask questions, do your hair, laugh (sometimes fight over you, "mi americana!" haha) and take lots of pictures (note Paula sporting my sunglasses). I was reminded so many times that we are called to be child-like (not child-ish) and love others - and be loved - without constraints 

one of the older boys, Chin, and Rambo (one of our awesome interpreters) unloading meals that are packaged in the USA at Meal Packaging Events

the children at the school in Don Bosco at lunchtime eating meals provided by COTN
(rice, lentils, veggies, spices and chicken)

the I Love Baseball boys hard at work

Having fun making faces, if silliness is a love language we were saturated in love! :p

This sweet girl just wanted to sit on my lap most of the afternoon (no complaining here)

Rambo and me getting ready for hand prints at the school in Altagracia

Vicky practicing her ABC's 

 The finished product! We all had paint on our hands and were doing crowd control while the children were hand-printing the wall, so we weren't able to get any pictures in the midst of the action :(  It was so fun though! :D

el fin!  
(Tree, flowers, verse about being rooted in love, food pyramid, vowels in balloons, ABCs, 1-20, Days, and Months) truly AMAZING that it all got done in one day (including siesta at lunch)!

Emmanuel, Raymond and Juanchi (our main interpreters) at the waterfalls enjoying the last of the chocolate frosting, yumm!

Saying goodbye to the staff after a refreshing, fun day in the water (there are pictures on other cameras at the waterfalls, to be posted later)

COTN Dominican Republic International Office (excited to be adding 2 more flags to that line up, Haiti and Liberia)


The children loved to take the camera and taking pictures of each other, these are my two favorite



"And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully, so that you may be filled with the measure of all the fullness of God."  -Ephesians 3:17-19 (mashup of NIV and NLT versions)



Friday, April 1, 2011

... quick catch up...

I realized today that I have only posted one blog this entire week. It has been a full week, which has made it go by very fast. It has been so good to learn about COTN Dominican Republic, meet the staff and listen to their hearts and their stories. Since we were not able to go into Haiti wed-fri, we got to see more of what goes on in COTN Dominican Republic and participate in a few projects in the area. On Tuesday we had the opportunity to see the COTN program "I Love Baseball" (ILB) in action! This is a program geared toward the thousands of Dominican boys who are rapidly dropping out of school to pursue their dream of baseball and becoming the next Sammy Sosa. Unfortunately, while a large pool of professional baseball players come from the DR, not every boy is chosen. So, ILB is a great program that provides coaching, training, healthcare, spiritual mentoring, with a strong emphasis on education for boys who apply to the program.

On wednesday the team broke into two groups: one to paint the classroom in Altagracia (a large batay about 20 mins away from where we are staying) and the other group to interview 4 different children who are or are in the process of being sponsored. I was in charge of the painting of the school [insert big smile] and making sure that we were painting things that the teacher wanted on her classroom wall. (Once I download the pictures I will make sure to post them up here) We painted a food pyramid, the ABCs, 1-20, days, months, vowels and a verse, a large tree and flowers with the childrens' hands as the petals and leaves. Language barriers made it fairly challenging in making sure that the teacher was getting what she wanted, but at the end of the day I think she was pleased. It was a lot of work and a lot of fun.

Yesterday we facilitated a leadership workshop using Strengths Based Leadership tools from Strengths Finder. It was so fun to learn more about the COTN-DR staff, their passion for what they do and poor into them more so that they can continue to poor into the lives of the hundreds and thousands of children that they care for on a daily basis.

Today we had the great opportunity to host a day at the waterfalls for the COTN-DR staff all day. We got to go to the local market and use the kitchen here at Casa Bethesda so that we could serve a meal for around 30+ people (staff and their families). They have been working so hard, serving so many teams that we wanted a chance to give them a little retreat. We went up to some gorgeous waterfalls and for $150 we were able to rent the entire place out for the whole day. It was so worth it! We bar-b-qued hamburgers and hotdogs, cream corn, veggies and made chocolate cake and swam and laughed all day. It was so rewarding to see them relaxing and having fun.

Well, it is late here and we have to pack up tomorrow morning to go back to Santo Domingo so I am off to bed. Once I am there I will have more time to write... I think. That way I can share more about what we have experienced during our time in the DR. Until then, buenas noches :)